Just got finished listening to He’s Able by Deitrick Hadden. You know there are times in my life in which I have been tempted to give up on God.
There have been inner feelings that I was created for His glory and there are many parts of my character that has not been fully actualized. I have been trying to figure out why there are times when I feel like this and its because of many prophetic words that I have received. Many of which I have not seen come to pass.
This song ministered to my heart and said simply not to give up on God because He won’t give up on you and then ends by saying “He’s Able!” What a word. I must admit there are times when I wanted to give up on God. Many times it’s because of my impatience and conversely because I have believed so hard. My dreams seem like they have been deferred and my heart has been sick. I have seen the character of men and my own character and have not been pleased and often times disappointed with both. I have experienced church hurt and have seen the integrity of the church and its leaders pale and tarnish but I still hear YOU saying through this song don’t give up on YOU because YOU won’t give up on me.
I confess that there have been times that I have posed like I had more faith than what I actually had. The truth is that there have been times that I have lived in doubt and my patience wore thin with You, the church, its leaders and its rituals and habits. But I’m still here by your grace hanging on by a thread but still able to hang. Even though I thought the strength was in my grip it was really in your grip. It wasn’t so much of me holding on to you as it was you holding on to me; keeping me together. Lord thank you for not giving up on me when I wanted to give up on you. In my heart you have read it and you know it. I apologize for doubting you and still anticipate greatness. I know that you are getting me ready for something else that is bigger than me. I receive your grace to endure. I receive your grace to breakthrough. I receive your grace to increase. I receive your GRACE! I won’t give up on you Lord because you never gave up on me. Bring healing to broken hearts; hearts that have been hurt and disappointed by the church, both its members and leaders. Help us not to give up on you, or your bride I know there may be some that may have felt like this but God's Able!